“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.”
-Anais Nin
I love this
quote by Anais Nin because it’s what I believe about the power of friends. And I’m not just referring to run of the mill
acquaintances. I’m referring to friends
whom become part of our soul and consciousness forever. Anais was a prolific, early 20th
Century erotic fiction writer long before the “Fifty Shades of Grey”
phenomenon. I only knew about Anais because
I stumbled upon one of her dusty books in a used book store years ago and
couldn’t put it down (blushing). For
years I thought Anais was a man (what woman could be allowed to write like that
so long ago?) until someone corrected me . . . which made me feel like Scarlett
Johansson’s nitwit boyfriend in Sofia Coppola’s wonderful movie “Lost in
Translation” . . . when he thought Evelyn Waugh (the famous writer) was a
woman.
Some
thoughts on a recent trip to my lake sanctuary . . .
I did a ton
of manual labor at the lake. When I say
a ton, I mean literally a ton. Because
every time it rains (especially during the historic flooding of last summer) a
ton of gravel washes from the road onto my driveway. So I spent the better part of a day shoveling
in the summer-like heat even though it’s October; shoveling chunks of angular,
grey granite into buckets to be dumped back in the road and smoothed over with
a rake. There is no doubt I’ll be
shoveling that same gravel back into the rode next spring. But the sun felt good on my face, turning my
nose read.
I woke up
early one morning and hauled my kayak to the water’s edge. Early morning is perhaps the best time to
kayak because the prairie winds calm down to nothing overnight leaving the
water without a ripple . . . a vast sheet of glass. To slice through this glassy plane, silently
save for the splash, splash of the paddles and the occasional surface roll of a
sand bass, is inexpressibly calming. And
then to feel the brilliant orange sunrise slapping you in the face as it rises
over a distant bluff is an awakening indeed . . . no coffee needed. And then it warms a bit and the winds begin
to stir and then the water birds begin their carrying on and feeding . . . a
big blue heron, some cormorants and geese way out on the water.
I paddled
across the water to the edge of a high bluff that I’ve written about before. What I’ve never mentioned is that it is one
of the best places to see bald eagles in Oklahoma, as they build their nests in
the towering oak trees dotting the steep sandstone bluff. But even though it’s the best place, no one
really knows about it except for a few boaters, because they can only be seen
from the water. It is especially
wonderful to be there in that place on the water in a plastic kayak as the sun
rises up, bathing the eagles and the oak trees and the high bluff in rays of
piercing, golden light.
I’ve been
uninspired lately, which drives me up the wall.
I’m not a machine like some whom can bring forth beautiful things
willy-nilly with routine, effort and discipline. I seem to be only able to create when my
stars line up and I feel just right.
I’ll never understand why this is but I’m learning to embrace it . . .
enjoy the highs when they appear, because they will always appear if I’m
patient enough. Perhaps that’s what
separates the men from the boys and I will admit I’m still a boy and most
likely always will be.
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